Have you ever
had one of those moments; where you are in a situation in which you have complete control over whether you live or die. For example, driving a car with a lot of traffic around that you could easily swing in front of, lingering on a train station whilst they rush past leaving that gust of air in it’s wake, or standing on the balcony of a multi-story building which would be easy to throw yourself off of.
I find them incredibly confusing.
Sometimes I get the feeling that I would so desperately like to find out what it would feel like to die, and to experience that. I am sure the choice would be an amazing thrill, but then what happens once reality hits and you realise you can’t take that back?
Then again, I think about missing out on everything that would continue to happen- there is so much to discover in life and I guess you reason with the fact that you will die eventually. Maybe it’s just a search for some kind of control over the inevitable.
